Another night, another dream wasted on you.

It's good to cry sometimes, especially if it's been a while. Like a drought, or a flower, and it needs your tears to grow and become stronger. But what if you're crying over someone who it really wouldn't effect? Basically, you're wasting your tears on them, and they don't deserve it, they aren't worth your sadness or if they wouldn't cry over you, why should you cry over them? Easier said than done.

"You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you."

When they say best friends means friends forever.

 

You know there's those people who you never get tired of, you could see them everyday & never run out of things to talk about. What happens when they backstab you? Or become the person they swore they'd never be? They betray you and you wonder if all these years, the laughter, the tears,  if your friendship even meant anything to them. Were those years just wasted time? Yeah, you enjoyed the good times you spend with them, but could you have spent that time with someone better? Someone that would always be there? That, we'll never know. You grew up together, but now you're just growing apart. You wonder what went wrong. How could something so strong and simple turn into something so awful and messy? You try to hang out with other friends, but they just can't compare to your BEST friend, the one you could tell anything and they wouldn't tell a single soul, not even their pet. Or the one you could be a complete fool in front of, and that just made them love you more. You stayed up all night with them talking about anything and everything. What happens when a friendship you thought would never end, ends in the blink of an eye. You're left alone, wondering, why did it have to end up like this? What happened to best friends forever?

"Never regret anything that made you smile."

Forget you.

Guard your heart. Don't let just anyone walk in and take it. I admit it, I fall for certain guys easy, and when I fall, I fall fast and completely head over heels. But sometimes, the person you fell for isn't who they make themselves out to be. You don't need to never trust anyone cause you're scared, or because you've been hurt before, cause even though it's hard to believe, not every guy is the same. You need to get to know them very well though before you should even consider taking the relationship to the next level. If you have even a small fight with them, you need to see how they react. The good guys, they'll listen to you, want to know why you're mad, and try to fix it. The jerkoffs, will yell, get very angry, and curse at you, call you names, and try to show how you're the reason the fight started and that it's your fault, even when it isn't. They have too much pride to admit it's them. That's a red flag right there. Obviously he doesn't know how to respect a woman. It's a shame, some of the best girls date the worst guys, when they could do so much better. The guys will make it seem like SHE'S the one that's always in the wrong and she'll be so brainwashed by him that she'll believe it. Her friends, siblings, parents, all tell her she could do so much better, but she doesn't see it. 

          "Sometimes, we accept the love we think we deserve."

Should've said no.

Don't ever do something sexual with a guy if you don't want to. You know, it's not right. They've got a girlfriend, or because you just want to feel wanted. I use to think if you'd have sex with a guy, it'd make him stay, or I wanted to feel appreciated and wanted, so I'd do something with him I knew in my heart I didn't want to. It's better to realize sooner than later, that sexual things won't make him stay. If they want that stuff soon, or barely knowing you, then that's ALL they want. They aren't in it for the long run. They'll fuck you and leave, or keep coming back for more from you cause they know you'll give it to them... They use you for their own personal pleasure. They may act sweet and like they care, but it's just an act to get what they want from you. But what happens when you turn them down? The truth is, they could get you pregnant and not even have the decency to buy you the Plan B. Oh, and the whole "I won't tell anyone about this", TOTAL LIE. Chances are, behind your back he's bragging about how easy you are and how you expect nothing from him in return. His friends will call you a whore, and he'll gladly agree. Even if it's not the truth, you really just have zero self esteem, and won't even enjoy it, you come off as that way though. And what if he has a girlfriend? He probably won't ever tell her, and you think nothing of it at the moment, but put yourself in her shoes, if it was you who were dating him, and someone was screwing him behind your back, you'd wanna know and you'd deserve to know, right? Yes, it's mostly his fault since he's dating her, but you took part in it, you helped make it happen. If he cheats on her, he'd do the same exact thing to you. Point is, I wish I had the knowledge that I do now about this instead of having to find out the hard way. Your virginity is something you can NEVER get back. So please, don't be like me. Be smart and save it for someone special. Make them wait until you're ready, and if they won't, then that shows you what kind of person they are and that you need to find someone who respects your morales, and mostly, your heart.

"Being a virgin nowadays makes you special. It's like being a unicorn"

Some of the prettiest people have the ugliest souls.

Will I ever be good enough for anyone? Pretty enough? Skinny enough? Smart enough? We spend too much time over-thinking everything; we create an image of ourselves that isn't even there, other people probably don't even see us as bad as we do. We compare ourselves to others and think, "Why can't I look like her?" or, "Why can't I be as skinny as them?" We think it'd make everything so much easier, and that we'd finally be happy with ourselves. Would we? Or would it just be imagination, false reality? Society & the world today makes it seem that unless you're not 100 pounds(or less) then you're fat. If you've got any type of zits, acne, pimples, blackheads, then you're ugly and you need to try harder. If you've got even a slight gap, you need braces, or you won't get anywhere in life. How about stop obsessing over what the world things, because flaws are what makes you, you. Love someone with their imperfections. You're beautiful JUST the way you are, and anyone that doesn't see it, shouldn't deserve to be in your life. Someone who constantly puts you down is NOT helping your confidence, but just making it worse. Face it, perfection doesn't exist. Sure, plastic surgery might make you look more like a barbie than anything else will. But is that natural? No, it's not you. Not what you were born like. It changes you. Find someone who loves you for who you are and wouldn't  change you for anything in the world. Some people use make up to hide their ugly personality. You may be beautiful on the outside, but on the inside your soul is black and empty. Can't use makeup to cover that. Judge someone on their personality, not looks. It's the best decision you'll ever make.

"Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you "

Forever isn't long enough.

It takes me the longest time to get over & move on from people I really love. When I give, I give all of me. When I love, I love fully & completely. With all of my heart. 110% true. No lies, just love. That person becomes such a huge part of your life, you forget how it was to function on your own. You're in denial. You don't want to go back to the way you felt before. You keep telling yourself it's not over, or he'll change, or he'll come back, But days pass...then months. And you realize, you're on your own.

"Tell me now, where was my fault, In loving you with my whole heart?"

Cold as you.

I don't know why.. I just can't stop pushing people away when they're getting too close. If I know I'm feeling something, and that it has the potential to grow stronger, I just can't seem to give it a chance. I'm too scared of getting hurt, getting betrayed, or not being able to trust... Sometimes I start to act short & cold towards you cause I want to see if you'll actually stick around, if you care enough to TRY, & fight for me.. I need to be fixed. Could you be the one to mend this broken heart & make it whole again? Just don't hurt me..please. That's all I ask.

"Maybe sometimes we try to hide that we really care, cause we don't want to care more than they ever will."